within tears u'll find truth..

bismillahirohmanirohim...
hurmmm..life is quite tough rite now..hdop kat asrama sikit sbnyak ade ar ngajar aku ttg gelagat org...kite kdg2 tlpas ckp tnpa kite sedar..then bile org wat muke, kite trase..bile org majok, kite ckp dia pelaq..adehhh...penah sdar x yg prangai kite tu bukan sume org ley trime n bukan sume org akan paham..kwn2 bertindak sbagai cikgu sebenarnye..tegur bile salah, ajar bile xtaw..tapi yg jahat jgn la korang input-kan..cikgu pon bukan sume betoi..tapi ape jadik bile 'cikgu' ni xtegor student yg wat salah? student kompem continue wat salah sbb dia rase dia betoi..'cikgu' lak continue ngutuk student..smpai bile?? tindakan xmatang dan yg sgt2 le bodh..adehhh...umo bukn makin mude der...xreti2 ke?kompius aku dgn korang..name je"**********...." tapi xprofesional lgsg..bile org tnye "ape slh aku?" jawab la elok2..buknnye" ko taw kan slh ko ape.." ko ingt aku ni mesin ke ley detect every single wrong i've made? ape ar...sampai mti ko akan trus kumpul dosa bab kutuk aku yg"xsedar2 slh sniri" n aku lak akan kumpul dosa basah sbb teros wat slh slgi xde org tegur. betol, masing2 da besar reti pikir baek buruk, tapi penah pikir x? manusia xkan lari dari wat salah..aku, ko dan yg lain2 manusia...so sedar2 ar..muka lau cantik tpi prangai cam hawau bek xyah der...rambut same itam(walau ade yg kaler2..)hati CONFIDENT laen2..bak kate pakwe pka.."sume ley setel derrr.."

tolong ingatkan aku..

assalamualaikum..huarghhhhh...da tepat kol 4 pagi hari nie..aku still unable to sleep..penyakit bf da meresap lam pale lutot aku..huahuahua..tetiba anak buah buzz ym and ask me to view his blog..and suddenly ase nak update this blog of mine which has been left for too long..miss u bebeh..Rase sangat2 tak bemaya..haven't sleep for the past 2 days due to extra work that i'm doing which is translating book..Okeyh, back to business..ni semester ke-5 and aku xberniat nak low down my frens number..but then,since everything have been too complicated, i wish i could turn back the time..making-up with everyone that once I've hurt..parents and siblings especially ..please notice that i would give up anything for my family..maafkan aku kerana abaikan kalian dalam waktu kalian memerlukan aku..Aku kdg2 confuse dlm ape yang aku nak since i don't have my goal..aku nak jadi cikgu..for my parents future..i only work towards their happiness not mine..when u are in my position, u'll undestand..there's no reason for an own-self..cause u are owned..by ur loved one's..stressed out completely. To maintain an expectation is a need, to understand that need needs heart, heart lead to empathy and before it..you need love..
for that..TOLONG INGATKAN AKU..